Sometimes I change

[sound: Dragon Ash - Few Lights Till Night]

I think a lot about the person I like. I can't help it. Even when I wanna sleep, I just can't stop thinking of him. My heart throbs, I can't calm down. I just can't help it.

I'm too much into it.

I'm taking it seriously. Maybe that's wrong.
In such moments I feel like a stupid little girl with no selfesteem; passive, insecure and timid.
That's not the usual me.
I hate that.