Fear the one you Love

I'm afraid of him.
And I'm afraid of myself.

What I fear deep inside my heart is that
if he finds out
he will leave me.
If my inner most thoughts should be revealed to him
it will chase him away.
Since I am afraid of them myself.
A beautiful bird shouldn't be caged

That's why I hold back.
And wait for the bit attention he grants me from time to time.
Still
I'm so frightened of him to hurt me
even more than he already does