Quotation from "Wild at heart"

We are in permanent danger not to be main actors, actively participating in the drama of our life, but only to react to the key notes whispered by the world and always letting ourselves flow to the current hot spots.
So this is how it feels, down in the cellar of despair. When the house, built by myself, is crumbling down over me.
So this is how it feels when I face the man I want to be and realize: He's not the one I am when no one is looking.
So this is how it feels when one gets alive. When you take on the fight, gain control.
And this how is it feels when freedom is emerging to blast the chains that have enslaved my soul.

by John Eldredge, translation E.F.