Human Greed

Can we really achieve everything we want if we just try hard enough? Are there no boundaries? Or is this just a make-believe, spread by some helpless optimists.

There are times when I believe. Believe that this world is a place of boundless possibilities, a perfect playground to live life the way you like.

And there are times when I think of it as an enemy. I am small, weak and have no control or power. A caged bird, watching through the bars at the things I wish for but cannot obtain.

The truth is that people always want more. And in order to get more, we start to loose sight of what we already have.

Gimme something to break

Sometimes there are these days.
Days you know from the very start you'd rather just stay in bed.
Sunday. First, you wake up because your mobile is ringing. A friend, asking about math homework (that you did not take a look at yet, of course). A bit of resentment, but you're fine. Now that you've remembered about school, get up and shower. But before that, you have to clean up the mess from yesterday night to be able to walk through to the bathroom. Bang your foot on the edge of your closet (after all it's the little things that make life worth living). You step on the scale and realize that you shouldn't have eaten that whole cake all by yourself. Then your mother shows up, tells you not to forget to do this and that. Yes, wish you a good morning too. Sitting now at your desk before a huge pile of homework, you don't know where to begin.

Pisses me off.
I just stood up with the wrong leg today!

Beautiful by Mandalay

If You can depend on certainty
Count it out and weight it up again
You can be sure You've reached the end
And still You don't feel

Do You know You're beautiful?
Do You know You're beautiful?
You are. Yes You are.

If You can ignore what You've become
Take it out and see it up again
You can be here for who's a friend
And still You don't feel

Do You know You're beautiful?
Do You know You're beautiful?
You are. Yes You are.

Innermost toughts will be understood
You can have all You need
Do You know
Do You know about anything
Do You know
Do You know about anyone

Do You know You're beautiful.
You are. Yes You are.

What stays in the end...

Whatever happened before
How hard and painful it was
In the end
Only the good times will stay
And matter

Protection

I want to become a person who can protect the ones dear to me.
Maybe not with muscle strenght, but there are many kinds of protection.
A tender embrace for example. Or an encouraging word.

I want them to feel safe and at ease.
I don't know what the future will bring... but whatever it will be

I won't let go of these hands.

Not what it seems

If someone smiles, it dosen't always mean he's happy.
If someone cries, it doesn't always mean he's sad.

What of our expressions is real, what is facade?
And how can we recognize it's difference?

Strong & Weak

Feelings. Affection. Love.

Look what it does to us.

We gain the greatest strength from it.
And also the greatest weakness.

One day passed...

and everything looks different again.
Everything is changing. Always.

I'm not even the same me as I was five minutes ago.

Everything is relative.
It just depends on you and your point of view.

I think it's time

I'm caught up in a paradox. A paradox between woman and girl.

Thinking back, I've always been quite naive about certain things... things like magic or true love. Or that all your dreams would come true when you've grown up.
I don't believe in fairies anymore.
On the outside, what you see, standing in front of me, looks mature. And I am. Sometimes.
But sometimes, I'm not. I'm hopelessly romantic, still dreaming about what the BackStreetBoys sing in their ballads. I always believe what people tell me; eventhough the other guy ran off without paying the hotelbill he owns me. And what about my knight in shining armor, taking me on adventures?

I think it's time for me to let go of these childlike attitudes. I feel I can't go out into the great wide world like this.
I think it's time for me to grow up.

Care by 赤西 仁

なれ合いと嘘の中で不器用な愛を背負い
時間に追われやになってた日に - 少し自由感じた
後何年かすれば思い出になるだから
忘れかけてた記憶と今を　-　ふと重ねてみたんだ
大切なもの抱えすぎて歩き辛くなった今日
いつだって僕らきっと誰だって
悲しみや弱さいくつも引き連れて
倒れかかったって踏み出す力を

きっとそこには泣いた分の笑顔が待ってる

すぎてく日々で何か見失いかけた
そんな風に自分の方からつないだ手ほどけないように
例えば君が傷ついたとしても
誰の愛だって何度も色変える
疲れて僕に寄りかかる日は
どんな君でも抱きしめるから
いつだって僕らきっと誰だって
悲しみや弱さいくつも引き連れて
倒れかかったって踏み出す力を

きっとそこには泣いた分の笑顔が待ってる

自分を信じて

A Little Advise For Friendships

Speak your mind. Tell how you really feel inside.
If not, even your best friend will missunderstand sometimes.
And you'll loose one bond after another.
Just because of an actually trivial matter. And that's not worth it.

Óyeme by Monica Naranjo

Best Rumba ever!

Mirando al cielo buscando a un amigo pasado
que se marchó sin aviso, se lo llevo el destino.
Que cortas eran las horas quando él estaba a mi lado
y ahora se hacen eternas - su corazón se ha dormido.

No me digas por favor que no vuelvo a ver te
Pues para mí, la vida no es vida si tu no estás junto a mi
Óyeme!

Recuerdo aquellos momentos que tan felices pasamos
En los que tú me decías ya juntos toda la vida.
Maldita sea la gracia, es muy injusta la vida
Ahora sola me quedo yo, sin rumbo y sin tus caricias

Todays Dusk

Autumn has the most beautiful sky-sceneries of the year!

Sunset I took in Egypt

In the desert, even a single tree equals hope.

No matter how small and weak you are
No matter how hard and unfit your surroundings seem
- you can still bloom -

On a special night not so long ago

A dimmed room, two bodies
a whispered moan, demanding kisses
and a little bit of danger

- It was the birth of a new desire

What I saw this moring

On a fresh autumn morning
fog is embracing the streets
covering everything up in beautiful silence.

And it seems as if time itself is stopped.

After a quarrel with Mom

My mother who tells me that she loves me.
My mother who tells me that she's proud of me.
My mother who tells me that I'm a nuisance.
My mother who tells me that she'd prefer another child.
My mother who tells me that she should never have given birth to me.

Parents are supposed to show their children the love and affection of a family, so that they can grow into warm individuals. But look at the way it is: Parents quarrel. Partens hit their children. Partens abuse their children. They divorce and abandon them.
Children are helpless. They won't make it alone. That's why Mommy and Daddy should be there, hug them with all their parental love and let the children be children as long as they still can.

What is left of the true meaning of being a mother, a father and a family in this world?

Behind the looking glass

I'm sitting in a room with no sound, no movement. Looking out of the window, I see my friends having fun as usual - just without me. As I want to catch them, glass is stopping me.
All I can do is watch the world passing me by.
But one day, when I find my strenght again, I'm gonna break through.

Classic by Shounan no Kaze

お前なら

やれば出来る　願いはかなう

明日は来る　必ず

My life's blessed

When people're doing fine ... they often don't realize it until it's too late.

So be everyday thankful for good friends, a job, family, a lover, good health, a place to stay and a peaceful surrounding.

Since things can change faster than you think.

About the kissing statistic

Due to a statistic I recently read, people in my country kiss for two whole weeks in their lifetime.
...
...
I think I'm above that average.
Kissing the person you like is ...
A real kiss is ... simply the best!

Quote from Ouran Koukou Hosutobu

We're tired of being disappointed.
We are always contradicting ourselves.
We want people to tell us apart - We don't want them to tell us apart.
We want people to know us better - We don't want them to know us better.
We always crave for someone who can accept us but to accept ones as twisted as we are...
There's no one like that.
So that we can stay unhurt in our own world
we put a very strong lock on our gates.
And live all together in lonliness.

Resignation

It's alright now. I understood.

I won't hold on to something that was not meant to be. At least not now.

A beautiful bird shouldn't be caged. Tha'ts why you are free to go.