Harlequin

Always sticking around, playing funny tricks
to the mind of a woman
Never leaving her alone with naughty stories
hush hush, softly trying to drive it off
the memory of her lovers
~ like a harlequin in an italian play ~

It's okay

She smiles at everyone. It's easy.

What's really hard to her... is to cry before a person.
She doesn't want to show weakness. After all she has been brought up to be a strong, independent woman. This is what she wants to be.
Yet... as someone deeply touched her inner self...
She couldn't help.

And then, right before him, they silently fell from her chin
- as she cried the most beautiful tears he had ever seen.

Final Step

Do you know what I mean?
And have you seen it too?
Do you know?
I'll do anything
just tell me what it means
this look in your eyes
but I already know I'll miss you
more and more each day of this life
'cause in them there is a longing
maybe I can't give you

did she tell him as he walked out, closed the door behind his back and was forever gone, leaving her all alone on that rainy night and for the rest of her life.

H2

Feel tHe SiLeNcE

Quotation from "Wild at heart"

We are in permanent danger not to be main actors, actively participating in the drama of our life, but only to react to the key notes whispered by the world and always letting ourselves flow to the current hot spots.
So this is how it feels, down in the cellar of despair. When the house, built by myself, is crumbling down over me.
So this is how it feels when I face the man I want to be and realize: He's not the one I am when no one is looking.
So this is how it feels when one gets alive. When you take on the fight, gain control.
And this how is it feels when freedom is emerging to blast the chains that have enslaved my soul.

by John Eldredge, translation E.F.

Traueranzeige

Von keinem geliebt, von keinem gehasst, starb heute nach langem, mit himmlischer Geduld ertragenem Leiden: Gott

Vo keim gliebt, vo keim ghasst, isch hüt, nach langem, mit himmlischer Geduld ertragenem Liid, gschtorbe: Gott

N'a pas été aimé de personne, n'a pas été détesté de personne, après enduré une longue temps de malaise avec une patience divine, est aujourd'hui décédé: Dieu

No era amado de ninguno, no era odiado de ninguno, es hoy, después de un período largo de con paciencia divina soportando sufrimento, fallecido: Dios

今日は誰もから愛されなくて誰もから嫌いされなくたまま、長くて苦しい間の後で死んだのは：　神様

By nobody loved, by nobody hated, did after a long, with heavenly patience endured suffering, die today: God

Well roared, lion

Oh my.
Of course I can talk big - sitting in my comfy room
Of course I know everything about life - still living with my parents
Of course I can tell how hard reality is - never had to actually live by myself

What a fool I am.
The truth is:
I don't know nothing.
I just like to complain.
And preaching a way of life I can't even practice myself.
Because the truth is:
I'm still just a girl.

What's done is done

Life is simple:

You make a choice and you don't look back.

Impressions of RAIL

Life is like a train running on a rail.

Our time keeps going on.
Sometimes slower, sometimes faster, but steady.
And sometimes on your travel, you meet a special moment.
A moment, so intensive, that in an instant it burns itself
into your mind, body and soul.
Then, I wish I could stop the flow of time.
I would sacrifice everything for it.
But no matter how much I wish for it
I can't possibily make it stop.
My train keeps on running and running.
Until there's nothing left. Until the end.

Vertical Horizon

Is there a trace inside your face
Of a lonley miracle?
And so I wait and lie awake
stagger through these empty streets
It doesn't really matter how the time goes by
In these days of no regrets, I keep mine to myself

And all I wanted was a miracle

My Thank Yous

I'm grateful.

Grateful
for my family who gives me the feeling of being loved
Grateful
for my friends who always cheer me up
Grateful
for so many special people who have crossed my way so far
Grateful
for the naturalness my parents let me to study japanese
Grateful
for having been able to grow up in such a beautiful place
Grateful
for each and every single one who seriously talked to me

I'm grateful
because all these things have made me the one I am now

Plüsch - Schlaraffeland Lyrics

Es git en Ort i minre Fantasie, det spielts ke Rolle wär du bisch
Ob riich, ob arm, das isch dert gliich, will alles e chli anders isch
Was mer sich wünscht, das wird dört wahr
Was toif i eim verborge isch, das wird plötzlich klar
I zeige dir en Ort, wo immer Sunne isch
Chum mit mir dörthii, wo jede König isch
I nimme di mit, nimme di a dr Hand
und zeige dir mis Schlaraffeland
Dört ghöret alli zu de Gwinner, will jede dört e Chance überchunt
Ob Maa, ob Frau, ob schwarz, ob wiis,
für Niid u Hass git's gar ke Grund
S git keni Träne wäg grossem Leid, s git nume Träne vor luuter Froid
Muess leider immer wieder wäg vo dert
denn jede Traum geit mal verbii
Was s schlimmste isch
s bruucht gar nid viel, das es au hie eso chönnt sii

English Translation:
There's a place in my fanatsy where it doesn't matter who you are.
Whether rich or poor, it's not important;
because everything's a bit different.
What you wish for, there, it will become true.
What's hidden deep inside of you will suddenly become visible
I'll show you a place where the sun is always shining
Come with me to where everyone is a king
I'll take you with me, grab you're hand
and show you my paradise
There, everyone's a winner, because everyone gets a chance
Whether man or woman, black or white
there's no reason for jealousy and hate
There are no tears out of sadness, only tears of joy
Unfortunatly, I have to leave that place again and again
since every dream comes to an end sometime
But what's the worst, is
that it wouldn't take much to place this dream into reality

運命の絆

Every time something bad or good happens to you
who's the one you want to speak about it first?
Everytime you see a wonderful sky scenery or listen to a new song
who's the one you want to share it with the most?
Everytime you don't know any further
who'd you wish to be by your side right now?

If you're lucky enough to have such a person
a person with who you naturally wanna speak about everything that's on your mind
don't ever let go.
And cherish her until the end.

Worries about Sarah

My best friend studies architecture at ETH Zurich, known as the hardest, most tiring subject you can possibly take. She's been working for a wohle year like crazy. Studing until 2 o'clock in the morning just to stand up at 6 and continue. 7 days a week.
She is terribly frightened of exams. Two months before the actual test, she's already hysterical and just can't cool down.
In addition to this, she lost last year her partner in latin dance and quit the scene, her passion of life. And yesterday, the guy she likes very much was to be found out that he has an eye on another girl.

Today, she got the message that she didn't make the exam. She failed in math class. Because of 3/4 points lacking.

Why is life so unfair? She really put her everything into these stupid exams. Having big hopes and vision. Dreaming of in the future she could leave the world a masterpiece of art behind. Talking about the colosseum and the akropolis.

And now? She's crying. Because of this stupid test, she's crying and full of doubts. And already afraid of the retaking exam next february.
"There must be more, don't you think?"
"I don't want to be forgotten! I want to leave something behind"
"I don't know what I really want for life anymore. I'm such a mess"

What is there I can help her with? And how can I help when I'm not sure whether I can fully understand her. Why does she want to leave the whole world something behind? Isn't it enough just not to be forgotten by the ones dear to you? And this not because you built or achieved something great but simply for the person you were?

Next weekend, I'm taking her someplace far away. We'll just get into a car, train or plane, I don't care. Just away. Maybe she can clear her mind a bit then.

Under Age Song

4 o'clock in the morning, just came home...

Life is bittersweet

真っ直ぐしかない

Your life is your own. And only your own.
It doesn't matter what others tell you to do. Or what they say is wrong or right.
Do the things you want to do
Go where you want to go
Live like you want to live
Be who you want to be

There is no left or right, there's only you
There's only one way, laid out straight before you
Shining and sparkling、you'll be alright
On your very own way of life

Cute Engy

Isn't she just lovable? My sweet little angel^.^

Just say it

Did you tell your Beloved One how you feel about him or her?

More than any other fancy, decorated words
they're hard to say.
But more than any other words
they're also what you need to say.
And more than any other words
they're also what you need to hear.

Aren't they?

30 seconds

Do you believe in love at first sight?
In a TV documentary I recently saw, they said a man or woman chooses his/her partner in a range of 30 seconds at their first meeting. Due to my experiences so far, I can somehow agree with this.

I think you can immediately tell whether you like the person standing in front of you or not. Just as he comes around the corner at the hotellobby in your sight, *BAM* an impact. Then you know. That you wanna stick with this person. You can't tell why. And are surprised even about yourself.
But you simply know.

After these 30 seconds, it doesn't matter how much time you'll spend with each other. Maybe you'll see each other every day. Maybe once a week. Once a year. Or even never again. Of course is every moment being together cherished. But what's really important are these 30 seconds. 30 seconds that nobody can take away from you. 30 seconds that will always stay. And be remembered.
The 30 seconds in which you chose him/her.

Learning from others

You know...
In this world, there are unbelievingly many people. And each and every one of them has a story to tell. The story of his/her life.
I would like to hear them all. There's no way to get to know people better than to listen to the stories they tell.
And it's not about whether you like the story, can agree with it or not, find it exciting or not. The point is to simply listen. Listen to another point of view, other experiences and other feelings. This way, your heart will open up to the world and your own place in it will become clearer to see.

いい男 ～ 又サプリから

本当にいい男はね。。。
ずっと長く一人の女に向き合える男というの。
だから、あなたも向き合いなさい。
本当の自分ちゃんと見せなさい。

大切なONE （嵐）

あなたにとって一番大切なONEは何ですか？そのONEを考えたことありますか？
世の中に色々な辛い事悲しい事たくさんあると思いますが、それ以上楽しい事がもっとたくさんあると思います。
自分、家族、友達、恋人、自分の中に必ず大切なONEはあると思います。
あなたにとって一番大切なONEもう見つけることが出来ましたか？
最後に僕ら嵐にとって一番大切なONEは。。。それはここにいる。
あなたです。

Little Red (taken from Sapuri)

You know... about little red... She got eaten by a wolf because she was walking all by herself. Someone has to watch her. I really think it's better if someone watched her.
So... If you're lost... I'll tell you. That you're doing fine. That you're a good woman. I'll always tell you!

Quotations from Peter Pan

About lookers-on
However, as we are here we may as well stay and look. That is all we are, lookers-on. Nobody really wants us. So let us watch and say jaggy things, in the hope that some of them will hurt.

A family scene
There could not have been a lovelier sight; but there was noone to see it except a strange boy who was staring in at the window. He had ecstasies innumerable that other children can never know; but he was looking through the window at the one joy from which he must be for ever barred.

About becoming a man
Mrs. Darling told Peter that she had adopted all the other boys, and would like to adopt him also.
"Would you send me to school?" he inquired craftly.
"Yes."
"And then to an office?"
"I suppose so."
"Soon I should be a man?"
"Very soon."
"I don't want to go to school and learn solemn things." he told her passionately. "I don't want to be a man. No one is going to catch me and make me a man! I want to stay a boy forever and have fun."
And then he flew away. He took Mrs. Darling's kiss with him. The kiss that had been for no one else Peter took so easily.

Frustrated

My life is good. No question about that. I'm going to university, have a little job, do some sports and go out with my friends sometimes. Even the weather nowadays is great.

Then why is it that lately, I'm feeling so angry and frustrated inside? As soon as I'm home, I become unsociable. I have a good home, but I just.. I somehow just can't stand these rooms anymore. I actually really like my own room, but... Dunno. Home has become work, work has become home. No place to relax anymore. Oh yes, and fuck the government. Nothing but trouble.
Ok. I'm simply pissed.

Toughts to far away

Do you know the meaning of missing someone?

My mind drifts away again and again.
Away to his voice. His hands, kisses and touch.
And clinging to the little time we had,
A longing heart hurts in my chest.

On the top of Zurich

The kind of moment you should remember when you're feeling down